My goal!

So since July, I have been in a bet...a rediculous and crazy bet. My friend and I decided that in order for me to lose my ghetto booty, I could give up sweets and soda. To be honest with you, I didn't think I could do it! Ever since I got married, I have taken on Luke's bad habits and began eating cookies and candy and even drinking soda. Wow! So Janalee and I went into this bet during the hardest time of the year!!! So far, I have lost a gracious 20 lbs, two dress sizes and my sexy jeans actually look sexy! Plus I feel great! It was so hard at first but the motivation was to not want to look like I did at Luke's b day party again. I love my new look and am still trying to lose 10 more lbs!!! Tell me what you think? You can def see it in my face...you think I was gonna let you compare bootys? Hahaha no way!

June 25th 2008

October 27th 2008

Some thoughts of the day:

My mind is always running a million miles a second. I find it hard to focus on things at times. I have some thoughts today:
*Why do I feel like I can't get everything done when it needs to be done?
*If Music heals the soul, then why do I listen to sad music when I am sad and fun music when I am happy?
*What is the name of that song? I have it in my head... Geez
*Am I gonna pass my test today, even if I studied?
*Why is it raining? I hate the cold rain.
*What is it like to travel to Italy? I am so jealous Sabrina!
*Why is there always a song in my head?
*When will it stop being so cold?
*Do I have a long time to live?
*Why am I so distracted?
*Whats it like to drive a Hummer?
*Is hunger a metaphor?
*Can I lose 10 more lbs in 2 weeks?
*Does excercise really increase endorphins? If so will I be happier if I run more? But its toooo cold outside. Brrrrr...
*If I fell asleep in class right now...would anyone notice?
*Who is tapping their foot? Its driving me insane! Stop it! LOL
*Why do I always worry about others? I have enough to stress about.
*Do blondes, do they like really have more fun? HAHAHA
*On that note, should I stay a brunette? I don't know if I would rather go back blonde.

WOW ! I have a lot of thoughts on my mind today.

Some Things I am Grateful For: (and in no particular order)

1. MMMMMM...Starbucks!
2. Freedom of speech, especially to have the choice to love whom you choose! Let them protest! Its their right, the gay community has been hit hard with this prop 8 and need to express their anger.
3. My ability to think and to love, some people are born with out this gift.
4. A testimony of the gospel
5. Hmm.. of course my family.
6. The chance to go to school
7. Modern medicine
8. THE Utah Utes! Go my favorite sports team go! Score a goal unit...basket.. HAHA and I am also grateful for Brian Reagan!!! LOL
9. Laughing!!! I am most grateful for the ability to laugh when I wanna cry and the way I can make others laugh when they need it!
10. Cafe Rio mmmm..."EXTRA CHEESE" hahaha! I love a good salad anyday.
11. Music, which is the best coping mechanism ever.
12. My health
13. Our soldiers serving our country...hang in there time is almost up guys!
14. Sweets, hmm.. nope actually thats a lie! Sweets are the devil. hahaha
15. All my so cute jeans from Express, which I look better in without sweets, thank you very much!

Happy Birthday Ava

Ava :Loves her Aunt Jenny!

Oh my gosh!!!! Processed sugar!!!!! Gimmie more!

YUUUUUMMMMMM!

Presents? I love crinkle paper and bows, how did you know?!?

My new favorite toy from my sissy!

More clothes...I am a true girl!

Look Nel, Balloons. I almost got her to say balloon too! But it came out as 'bahm bah'.

She wouldn't let that balloon out of her sight!

What? I love my SUGAR dog

Ava is 1 now! YAY!!!

Danielle vents:

I am so frustrated right now I can scream. I can't sleep and I find it hard to settle my nerves...butterflies. I love butterflies, but not this kind. I have an online journal I have been keeping. It helps me to rationalize and list the things I am doing to make my life more stressed and complicated. I think that I am just really emotional and I let things get out of hand. I saw a counselor a while ago and I'm told it might be a good idea to get another counselor.

just a thought

how often do you step back and think how grateful you are to be alive? Sometimes I think that I really need to (oh just got the chills) say to myself, "you are so awesome" and also "I love me". I never hear this form my mouth. I am working so hard in school and finally got a 100% on my test last week. I am really getting burned out at SDS and think that I need to step back. I have a job, some people are losing theirs. I want to cry lately. I don't know what I am doing. sigh... I need some friends to lean on. I am keeping a journal these days and Becky says she wants to make a movie out of my life. If she only knew how boring it really is. LOL

My Brother:

When I saw this pic online, I LITERALLY burst into tears. This boy here is my only brother I have and I am so glad that he is here to see his baby be born and marry his love Selleca. It is going to be very hard for all of us once he is gone. I have been going through a lot lately and all I need now is to worry about my little brother too. Life is crazy which is why I rarely blog anymore. When it comes down to it, I think that I need to re evaluate everything I am doing in life and learn to appreciate what I have that I have worked so hard for.

Dev and Selleca tie the knot.

We had a good time last weekend at the wedding. Mom came here last minute to SLC to help with the wedding. Thanks to MOM, AUNT VICKY, PAIGE(sell's sis in law) and MEGAN(sell's other sis in law) for all you did in prep for their wedding! ALSO thanks to DADDY and LUKE for setting up and making this wedding possible. MEL!!!!! Your cakes were SOOOOO yummy! Thank you for making them even tho your life and baking status were slammed! You really are a joy to our family. I really am grateful that our family is so awesome! We are a good team! Now that Sell and Devin are married, the babe and momma are covered in health insurance and stuff. That baby is my life! She really is such a bundle of CUTENESS and loves her auntie!

Bella is a model

We spent 2 hours with the photographer and got Ava to smile for about 5 pics out of 2000! I know she would have smiled for Dad. HAHA little stinker. I am so bad at blogging lately. Nursing school has really got the best of me. I feel so bad for Luke cause he feels like I am never home and I am sporadic on my chores. Hmm...

Welcome Ellie Danielle Cummins

Born on Tuesday Sept. 30th. She is just the most beautiful thing in the world. Ava was just as excited to meet her as I was.