To: Devin

So tonight, I find myself unable to sleep thinking about a chick flick movie that Mel, me and yes...MY DAD watched tonight. I'm such a sap! The movie was, "PS, I Love You." I haven't seen it before, if I had, I really wouldn't have made my dad sit thru it. I can't tell you how much I bawled during it. What a baby? Well I had to say what I was thinking during it because I know that there are others who probably have seen it. I really love chick movies that make you cry cause, Duh? I love the happy ending thing that predictably happens. Although, this movie had an ending, it sure did take a whole lot of torture for Holly(Hillary Swank) to get there. For any guys reading this... please just bear with me. In the beginning of the movie, she felt her life just wasn't according to plan. She looked at everything in the negative. And because of that, she wasted time that she could have been happier. She had no choice in the matter when her husband died at age 35. He was taken from her. She spent a whole year after he died, pining for the man she loved, who was now gone, forever.
This made me think, tell those who you truly love, that you are sorry when you do something wrong. Tell them you love them... tell them before you find its too late. Even if it is a friend or a family member. Show them you care about them. Throw away regrets and harsh feelings. It made me think about my own life.
To get personal, I want to say this to my brother. My only brother. He will be leaving us here in the 'land of the free' and home of the 'do anything you want to.' To my brother, who I love, I am so proud of you. The person you are and who you will become someday. Iraq will not be easy. On any of us. I want to tell you I love you. I don't ever want you to feel like you aren't someone. You are definetely going thru so much lately. We have been thru so much together. We are survivors of the worst of the worst and the best of the worst. If we didn't experience them, we wouldn't know of the best of the best. Life challenges, you know what I'm talking about, are whats gonna help you survive this. Stay strong for Sel and baby Ellie. Tell (you know who) that you love her, even if you are angry with her still. Before you can't....
To my brother, with love, Danielle